Pastel Bruises

You don't know me
Only what I once was 

And these glass shards that build me
And these crooked scars you left me
And these pastel bruises you gave me 

You don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me
Only what, only what, only what I once was 

And these glass shards that build me
And these crooked scars you left me
And these pastel bruises you gave me

I'm falling slowly down
My mind's a maze I need you now

You don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me
Only what, only what, only what I once was

And these glass shards that build me
And these crooked scars you left me
And these pastel bruises you gave me 

They made me

Hold Me

Hold me closely
Touch me gently
Touch me softly
That's all I need
I see my life in HD so there's no escaping X2
Hold me closely
Touch me gently
Touch me softly
That's all I need

Once upon a time I lost my mind
And fell into a world of no escaping
A world made up of figments of my mind
Searching for some constant validation
Sometimes it takes me up high
I feel like I'm flying
And the world is quickly spinning
Then it'll take me down low
With nothing to hold me
No, nothing will save me

Hold me closely
Touch me gently
Touch me softly
That's all I need
I see my life in HD so there's no escaping X2
Hold me closely
Touch me gently
Touch me softly
That's all I need

Looking for something to fall to fill the hole
Looking for something to save me
Wishing away what I love to force the risk gone
That there will be no pain

An empty world is better, an empty world is better for someone who feels everything
A static world is better, a static world is better for someone like me
A senseless world is better, a senseless world is better for an addict of dopamine
A static world is better, a static world is better for someone like me

Hold me closely
Touch me gently
Touch me softly
That's all I need
Hold me closely
Hold me closely
Hold me
 

Locked Door

Locked Door
Where's your key
Isn't it funny how I write these things
Always need more
Why can't I see
Is being me good enough for me
Identity

There's something more underneath
Can't even thaw the ice but I say I know these things
Isn't it funny how I write these things
Funny how I write these things
When I can't even seem to open myself up to things
Was it losing them or have I lost me

Locked Door
Where's your key
Isn't it funny how I write these things
Always need more
Why can't I see
Is being me good enough for me
Identity

My secrets, regrets, hopes, and dreams
All laid out there for them to pick it up and throw it back at me
Trust is the key they took and hid from me
One day I'll have that key
I'll unlock it for someone who truly loves me

Locked Door
Where's your key
Isn't it funny how I write these things
Always need more
Why can't I see
Is being me good enough for me
Identity

Locked Door
Where's your key
Isn't it funny how I write these things
Locked Door
Where's your key
Was it losing them or have I lost me

Time Machine

I wish I had a time machine to take me back to happier things
I wish I had a place to go that I could call my own
But what would I be without these things 

I wish I had a time machine to take me back to simpler things
I wish the tears were tangible but they've been ripping me bone by bone
But what would I be without these things 

I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish
But what would I be without these things

A part of me wants to be happy but I can't force something that I can't be
A part of me wants to be happy but I can't force something that I can't see
But what would I be without these things 

Before You Came

And you know that I need a peace of mind
But you still follow
And you know that I feed off a peace of mind
But I'm still hollow

I'm still hollow X4

And there's shame written on my forehead don't touch me
Can't explain or deny the feelings I'm having
Maybe just for tonight I'll hold myself till I sleep
And the weight is over
And I'm dreaming of a place
Before you came

And you know that I've got sandpaper as skin
But you still cut it
And you know my frozen feelings, all my secrets
But you won't say them

There's stigma X4

And there's shame written on my forehead don't touch me
Can't explain or deny the feelings I'm having
Maybe just for tonight I'll hold myself till I sleep
And the weight is over
And I'm dreaming of a place
Before you came

Before you

Shadows

Tell me society
Do you have a bandaid to cover up my deep cut
Tell me society
Do you have some duct tape to cover up my deepest thoughts

All you do is make me hide in the shadows
You say it's for my benefit
But when I'm hiding in the shadows
It takes the life out of me

I feel like I'm drowning
And I don't care cause I don't wanna breathe
I don't want air cause I know you'll feed it to me
You drain all my energy
I feel like I'm drowning

Tell me society
Do you have a mask to cover up mental disease
Tell me society
What can I do to make it seem like I'm smiling

All you do is make me hide in the shadows
You say it's for my benefit
But when I'm hiding in the shadows
It takes the life out of me

I feel like I'm drowning
And I don't care cause I don't wanna breathe
I don't want air cause I know you'll feed it to me
You drain all my energy
I feel like I'm drowning 

Anything for you X6
I feel like I'm drowning

I'm breaking free

Sunrise

Sunrise
Let the rays touch my skin again
There's beauty in the night
The stars led me back to this

Nothing's the same since I came to this place
Nothing's the same
No one's the same
Nothing's the same since I came to this place
Nothing's the same
I wouldn't change it X2

I wouldn't change it

Sunrise
Let the rays touch my skin
Again

Sunrise